If memories exist only in pain Then imagine All the nuances We think We missed. If memories exist only in pain I would make every moment A heartbreak To remember All this truth. If memories exist only in pain Please torture me forever That I may always Remember Me and you.
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Mermaids In The Sea Of Now
But,
I am in love with you.
Why feign that I am not?
Why silence the words that sit upon my lips,
That drip from my skin,
That shine from my eyes,
That everyone knows,
That you knew before anyone,
That you pulled from me,
That you saw would be true
When your eyes first found me
A year ago
In your slick, black suit
With your penetrating, demanding eyes
With your commanding, silent gaze?
I was angry with you.
How dare you gaze upon me,
Stare at me lengthily
And not complete the phrase?
How could I not sense?
How could I not notice,
You, the most handsome of your group,
So self-assured, even if you were shy,
Staring so single-mindedly;
Was I not to notice, truly?
Was I not to hold your gaze?
Would that I had been that doe
In that rainy meadow,
Ears pricked,
Returning your gaze, innocently…
But you did not peek at me innocently,
Did you?
You looked at me with intent.
You saw into my soul.
You knew me.
You commanded me.
Instantly.
And composedly walked away.
We loathe those birds-of-prey
Whose glittering feathers woo fine women
He who knows his beauty
Fashions his allure like preened wings
Displayed for all to see
Pricks his talons into lovely creatures
So he can as easily withdraw
Leaving his mark of bleeding hearts in his wake.
You are not of them;
And yet, you have as much power.
Would you have me deny it,
Just because you choose to?
I am yours to command,
Harpooned through the heart,
Strung along through your seas,
A weakened beast, weakened by your greater will.
I have thrashed.
I have fought.
I have cried and screamed.
I have begged.
I have relented.
I am yours to string up, as you like.
Make of me your trophy, for your wall.
Make of me your meal for months.
Feed me back to the fishes,
My blood spilling upon your ship.
Make of me your greatest story;
To tell in aged days
Of the great beast you caught
In fabled waters, in the days of your youth
Who loved you so dearly
Swam so innocently by your side;
Sang painful, heartfelt melodies,
Spoke all the secrets of these seas
That pierced your ears and stung your heart
That almost made you weep.
They say a mermaid’s tears are rare, indeed,
Yet mine spill a million times
Pearls like raindrops in the ocean’s deep.
Have you no heart
That you try so hard to deny
Your lust for this forbidden creature
Your love for my innocence
Your loneliness for my companionship
Your longing for my heart
My lingering on your lips?
Do you forget so easily
As I do
The dreams we make
The worlds we transcend
The patterns we break
With every touch
With every kiss
With every word between you and me?
What care you for the future?
What care I for the past?
What else is there than you and I
In the foreverness of now?
Kiss me again
Love me again
Touch me again
Listen, again.
We are again
And again
And again
The foreverness of now.
Currents
I immerse myself in your ways
And I find myself swimming in my own depths
Returned to fresh waters I knew only in theory
Returned to dammed waters I knew were true
Awash in your ways
I find myself in tears unshed for years
I find myself renewed
I find myself alone, and, somehow, with you
All theories take on new life
Resonating, sounding new depths
Revitalizing, seeding sleeping places
And I somehow cease to fear
Is it true, you are my soul-twin?
Is it true, you are the one
To walk me into death, then back again
We walk, skip, run into the light?
In you, there is no memory.
In you, there only is.
In you, there lives all possibility.
In you, the pulsing flow of life.
I have no control
These oceans in me belong to you
Salt them with your wisdom
Cleanse them with your spirit
For I am yours
This free spirit that moves with the world
Is, now and forever
Given over to you
…And if, in all your wisdom and grace
You give us both unto the world
So much the better for us both
For I will always be part of you
Pride and Humility
He always was everything
And yet, is Nothing.
You would be nothing
And yet, are Everything.
And in my loving both of you,
Love all that Is.
Is it blasphemy to think such words?
Are they not True – as True as any ever were,
Ever thought,
Ever felt,
Ever conceived?
Your humility and his
Would bind you both
While I, in gall and innocence,
Take flight on Daedalus’ wings,
My beauty protected by the gods,
My sweetness keeping my humble heart
And prideful mind
To love,
To still love;
And, when wax wings melt
With certain heat of that great orb,
I fall,
Yet, tempting Helios’ gaze,
Am saved
To tour the world in golden chariot,
To speak of truths that he and I do see,
To, jealously resigned and happy still,
Have him return me safely back to thee,
And he.
What know you, both, of such adventures?
And, should I tell, would you believe them true
Or mere fancy of a mindful girl
With too much fancy in her mind,
Mirth within her heart,
And honey on her tongue?
I dream,
And in this dream of Life, know little that is true
‘Til Truth be spoke into my heart, and my heart hears,
And am forever bound to it
As I am bound, forever,
To him
And you.
Mice
You cannot bear the challenges I seek, you say.
How was I to know, when I consider you an equal
When I have been you, so afraid;
When I am you still, so stupid, ignorant?
You run, retreat to flashing screens
And you wonder why you do not visit unknown lands
Why you do not love or have returned a love so great
As I have had with you, or so many times.
You beat upon yourself, as you have done
For years, beneath your table, so afraid.
No stories? No imagination, even, to keep you safe?
No walls, even, to shield you from view…
You are a grey mouse, shielded by a table’s leg
Your heart a thousand beats to my every one
Am I the great cat, ready for my prey
As you do make me out to be, cruel and unafraid
Or human, baiting a trap to snap your neck
Or blonde mouse, as timid in my ways as you,
Stepped only moments before into Paradise
And calling unfamiliarly back to you?
Can you ever know, from that small place?
Can you know, behind an immobile shield?
Can you ever know, when calling taunts
And pained insults into an abyss?
Try. Step out. Release your inner lion,
Or be, at least, a man.
I do not talk down to you. How could I?
When I am you.
When I remember, and yet live in fear.
Do Not Lie; I Love You
Do not lie to you
About your intentions
About what you want
When your body speaks volumes
With the heat of desire
With the sweetness of kisses
With the tenderness of touch
With your need for me
Do not lie to you
About your intentions
About what you want
When your mind reels
Over past events
Over past relations
Over past failures
Over the intense truth of you-and-me
Do not lie to you
About your intentions
About what you want
When you cannot lie
Despite all your lies
Despite all your claims
Despite all your resistance
Despite my naïve trust in you
Do not lie to me
About your intentions
About what you want
When I, in vulnerability, state deep truths
Give, thoroughly, everything you ask
Give, honestly, everything I want
Give, eventually, all that I am
Give, helplessly, it all to you
Do not lie to me
About your intentions
About what you want
When I can see through
To all your truths
To all your complexities
To all your fears
To all your love
Do not lie to me
When I cherish you
And I am wise enough to understand why you lie
And smart enough to learn what you’re saying
And bold enough to stand behind the truths I find
And in love enough to share their treasures with you
Do not lie to you
Do not lie to me
When it changes nothing of the truth
And nothing of you
And nothing of me
Do not lie
(I love you)
Oceans of Mine 