Grey and Blue

I lied:

I'm never done with you

Never finished, 
Never lost, 
Never not yours

Did I lie,
Or tell the truth,
A truth beyond my comprehension?

Because
We've changed

I'm never not yours,
Yet, I belong to myself alone

You're never not mine,
Yet, you do as you wish, too

The complexity of truth is maddening:
Worlds beyond "true" and beyond "lies"

Paired mirrors, we are, 
Face-to-face:

Ever-ongoing,
Ever-lost,
Ever-abandoned

Ever grey
And
Ever blue

Rush

Yes,
It came and went so quickly:

A storm that passed between,
Swept us up in a dream --
And, in a climactic scream,

Emptied
Us
Both.

Beautiful perfection
Existed for a moment,
Faltered into an abyss.

What a pity.

There's a mirror somewhere around,
When you want to look into it.

Rush

Yes,

It came and went so quickly:

A storm that passed between,

Swept us up in a dream —

And, in a climactic scream,

Emptied

Us

Both.

Beautiful perfection existed for a moment,

Faltered into an abyss.

What a pity.

There’s a mirror somewhere around,

When you want to look into it.

Daydreams

And the world is blue without your arms
And grey, without your mind;
It’s red, without your kisses, fine,
Refined by stalwart art

My mind creates a land of charms
With vibrant greens and gold
Despite the chill of winter’s cold,
Brown swallows dash and dart

Amidst white clouds and shining things,
A rainbow hangs above;
And sing a bird’s song, bright, of love,
Into this brand-new start

Come hither, where the church bell rings
With every passing hour
And bring to me a springtime flower,
And in my life, take part

And the world is blue without your arms
And grey, without your mind;
It’s red, without your kisses, fine,
Refined by stalwart art

My mind creates a land of charms
With vibrant greens and gold
Despite the chill of winter’s cold,
Brown swallows dash and dart

Amidst white clouds and shining things,
A rainbow hangs above;
And sing a bird’s song, bright, of love,
Into this brand-new start

Come hither, where the church bell rings
With every passing hour
And bring to me a springtime flower,
And in my life, take part

All

It has been said that
Cigarettes
Are a way to hold
Fire
In a human's hand

It has been said that
Wine
Is the source of
Life

I say that
You
And I
Are yet the depth of
Love

And love
Is
Life
Is
Fire
Is all of
Faith
Is
Truth
Is
All

Is
All

Is
All

So-and-So

So,
you don't want the words I spill,
pouring from this surging swell,
cresting lips you've known so well
from depths of me you've helped to fill

'Why bother with men,' an old man said
one chilly night, when the leaves were dead,
after up his walk my feet did tread;
and, quickened, my mind and my heart then sped

"I love because I must," said I,
and gazed into that darkened sky
remembering how many had said 'Goodbye,'
loving each one anew to verify

So,
you don't want words uttered now, do you?
Don't want my heart, though undoubtedly true.
Don't want to delve into all we've been through,
Can't walk away to a fresh morning dew

And that's still your trouble, my favorite dear:
That the past remains:  insurmountable fear,
You'd sooner look on us with distasteful sneer,
Sooner leave your past lonely and shed not a tear

I'll cry for us both, as I've cried times before
And I'll keep true to us, as I've kept true our lore
While you hold yourself stifled, and life, you ignore -
But I'll not forsake you; you're one I adore

Only You

Only you
Defied reality
Defiled my mind
Withstood my sea
Came back to me

Not only you
Resisted reality
Withheld your mind
Shrank from my sea
Came back to me

Only you
(And only they)
Could claim my mind
Shift what you say
With meanings play

Not only you
(Nor only they)
Left me, my mind
And heard me say
"Love is not a game I play,"

But only you
Are only you
I keep my mind
My heart is true
I still have room for "I love you"

Love In Rainbows

Love me in rainbows,
Not just red, blue or green,
Love me with whispers of the Agean Sea

Love me in rainbows,
Not with some smattering,
Love me with fervor of mosquitos' biting

Love me in rainbows
More than red, blue and white,
Love me and hold me with all of your might

Love me in rainbows,
Love with all of your sight,
Love me with such heat we lift up in flight

Love me in rainbows
Ends piled with gold
Love me with such love our love can't be sold

Love me in rainbows
With colors so bold
Your love and my love can never grow old

Love me in rainbows
'Til we reach the sun
Love me and love me 'til we become one

Love me in rainbows,
Silken touches you've spun
And I'll love you forever, 'cause I won't be outdone

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Clichés

Please don't tell me how great I am
If you're just gonna walk away
Frankly, I don't give a damn
I'm here and now, let's live the day

Don't let's wait another year
Before we dare embrace again
Falter to love and not to fear
Spread wide your heart, let love begin

Please don't waste another word
In lieu of love, then run from me
They're all the same; they've all been heard
Don't tell us both I'm best left free

When it's excitement in your ear
And rambling thoughts that sound like fear
In the stillness of your heart's rush
Is still the shadow of joyful blush

You found a soul with a widespread heart
Embarked with a mind whose life is art
So, come back, now, into widespread arms
Let me thrill you with feminine charms

Don't tell me, please, how great I am
If you're going to walk away
Frankly, my dear, I don't give a damn
Carpe diem, love; sieze me today

Photo ©2016 MLM

Silhouettes of You

Waving just beyond the window
Swaying just beyond the blinds
I sense your sensual energy flow

And I can't, for all of me, reach you
And I can't forgive myself
For I can't and I won't make do
I won't put life on a shelf

Waving just beyond the window
Swaying just beyond the blinds
I can't bring myself to go

And tomorrow won't be different
And tomorrow won't ever do
For tomorrow, you won't think to repent
And I'll still be missing you

Waving just beyond the window
Swaying just beyond the blinds
I can't reach you; I can't know

If your voice, my heart will cling to
If my voice will sing to yours
All I want is to be near you
All I want is mine and ours

Waving just beyond the window
Swaying just beyond the blinds
Still, we flow, we love, we grow

Photo ©2016 MLM

Running In Circles

So, the obvious 'comes apparent;
Does this change 'nything in truth?
For our friendship leaves the aberrant
‘Fore I come home to Duluth

And I found another lover
And your soul and mine depart
And my freedom, I recover
And I find again my heart

There was never any answer in the minds rejecting love
There was never any truth in those blue skies, so far above
There was only I and you, two lonely souls stood, side-by-side
There were only two hearts calling, though but one love could abide

And I found this other lover
And your soul and mind depart
And my freedom, I recover
And I offer him my heart

So, the obvious 'comes apparent,
And all life is changed, in truth
And a friendship dies, inherent,
For each choice made in Duluth

But, I found my only lover
Ne’er his soul and mine depart
And our freedom, we’ll recover
As I share with him my heart

There was never any answer in the minds rejecting love
There was never any truth in those blue skies, so far above
There are only I and you, together: souls here, hand-in-hand
There are only two hearts ‘twining, exploring love and life, unplanned

Prisms of Love

Don’t you know?

I long to feel the skin upon your face,
The brush of whiskers nettled on your chin
And when I reach to touch, you to embrace
I find that I am forced to reach within

For - don’t you know?

I tremble all the day and all night long
My body eager, vibrating as you strum
The heartstrings of such a familiar song
Your fingers not yet on flesh; still, for you I thrum

And I cannot foresee another way
Than dancing deeply in a world unknown
So I will live and love another day
That one day, maybe soon, this depth be shown

That, maybe one day soon, I will be yours
And you’ll be mine, in body too;
That one day soon, we’ll dance through doors
In ethereal worlds we’ll live, both I and you

So, don’t you know?

My heart is bound to yours and lost to me
It’s yet my mind you kiss, that you must woo
And I, lost forever in this fantasy
Somehow made real, this life, by your love true

And - you must know!

Forever, in this time
That you are yours, and also I am thine;
That I belong to me, and you are mine!
That we are ours, forever-love sublime

Photo ©2016 MLM

“Be Good”

"Be good,"
And I am filled with confusion
Singed with pain
Filled with fear

For what good
Is implied in that allusion
When your stain
I hold so dear?

I was good!
T'was not delusion:
Did I not return again,
And without a sneer?

We were good!
And, in conclusion,
My tears fell like summer rain
And no one to hold me here

It is not good -
This old contusion
Held a mem'ry in my brain,
I must let go of this arrear

So I'll be good
And find some fusion
Such that this loss does not me drain,
Such that love is my engineer

The Sounds of Freezing Rain

I don't care if you are beautiful,
I am done with you

I don't care that I love you

I don't care about our past,
I don't care about our future

because love was meant to last

I don't care for your intentions,
I don't care for your mistakes;
I don't care for our desires

This must end before I break

I don't mean it for a minute,
I don't mean it for a year

I mean:

I can't bear this feeling
of you calling me your "Dear"

while you test that my heart beats
for you through the test of time

while you promise me your friendship
when devotion is but mine

I don't want to hear your sweet voice

I don't want to read your words

and should you chance upon me

please don't ask that I abjure
either love or firm abstinence

for my heart and mind must heal

I have chosen life without you
'til your heart you will reveal

Without love, there is no friendship
without friendship is no love
possible between two people who

may swear to skies above
that they are true, that they love,
that they care for one another purely

and yet, wish for something different...

as when you ask me to demurely
sit, or walk, or feel for you,
abnegating all my soul,
deprecating all I value
and then, playfully, cajole

me into bearing, yet again,
my heart

such is neither kind nor true

I don't care that you are beautiful

I must be done with you

Photo ©2016 MLM

Wonderland Has Come

He doesn’t know -
And neither do I -
How much time passed in the netherverse of love
How much power heartbeats have in times of need.

Years passed by without him near,
And mere moments since I have returned,
Thick with love and sweetness;
And we’re drunk on each other, again.

With every breath, I inhale a world that was mine.
With every glance, he takes me in.
This is not the love, the passion of children,
Of hurt adults fumbling towards ecstasy;

This is the love between worlds,
Between the seconds of real time;
This is violet love, of the kind Tesla knew…
This is fantasy-come-true.

Don’t talk to me of what might have been.
Don’t utter words of dissent, of discontent.
These are the times worth saving,
Moments worth living…

These are the worlds unseen and yet alive;
So:
Live
And love

Endlessly.

Photo ©2014 MLM

P.S. I Love You, Still

I fell into your world, my love;
And here, I shall remain, in heart,

Even if I am away,
Even if I must away,
Even if I am to be in a Wonderland of my own making…

I fell here, first, my love;
And here, I shall remain, in part,

As I have for years,
As I have for weeks,
As I shall, again, until I find the mirror-gate to you…

There is a Hatter who makes tea for two,

Who protects his M with kindness,
Who tempts Alice with long-coated horses,
Whose silver steed drives like the wildest things.

There is a girl whose land is elsewhere,
Yet finds life in Wonderland rings

With yet too-familiar courses
Of behavior with him all-too true…
And yet, we pine in distance;

And yet, you are right here;
By some grace of our natures’ providence
We touch what we hold so dear…

And you are in my heart, my love;
And here, you’ll always stay,

No matter time may come or go;
No matter how many worlds away…

For we have already broken rules
Upon us set by else-worlds’ minds,
Still: As precious as Majesty’s jewels,
Each other’s hearts, we find.

Stay with me. Love me. Be with me.
We shall never fear nor be torn apart;
For we are as Titans, as magical as gods
With all we’ve ever seen.

Photo ©2016 MLM

The Road To Giving Up

he’s just not that into you…

It’s been a week since I’ve heard from you
Sweet words of love
Of tenderness

he’s just not that into you…

While men in desirous parts of the world
Beg my attentions, pour on me affections,
Pull for my presence, promise me peace

he’s just not that into you…

I suffer long, lonely days alone, abused still
By absence, by affliction, by the remnants
Of maltreatment banished

he’s just not that into you…

And wonder, worry for your beauty
Wonder, worry for my own…
Reminded by your native enemies…

he’s just not that into you…

No sweet words come at last
No fond words of affection
No desire to be present…

he’s just not that into you…

But, even my white kitten comes,
An angel's silent steps and passionate
Love-bites to remind me of my own…

he’s just not that into you…

You’re just not that into me, are you?
For, if you were, your words would spill;
For, if you were, no harm could come…

he’s just not that into you…

for, if you were, you’d
share words of peace,
feather me with beauty…

… just not that into me…

… and I fade,

my love burning like a pyre,
my heart aching like a martyr,
my mind begging for a champion,

and I, abandoned of your touch
bereft of love…

he’s just not that into you…

my eyes spill, slowly, 
yearning for the truth…

he’s just not that into you…

'til my heart breaks 
as I read your words:

“… I’m just not that into you”

Photo ©2014 MLM

The Death of C & S

Feels different, now:
Feels empty, like we’re both hiding some dirty secret.

You won’t look me in the eyes;
I can’t smile at you, and

I don’t want to lie to you.

We were children, for a moment.
We were happy for days,
Two friends across a room,
Two strangers giving love

For nothing more than a common simplicity.

No one cared but us.
No one demanded of us.
No one really knew, but us.

It feels different now.
It tastes different now,

Like stale bread,
Like spoilt milk,
Like turned fish.

I don’t like it;
And, I think,

Neither do you.

Photo ©2015 MLM

Love In A Criminal World

Don’t tell me you want to get to know me

When I give you all I am.

I’m not made of the times we share,

Not made of the things we do,

But of the life I live,

The ways I love,

And how I see the world.

Don’t investigate me like a criminal,

For I’ve done nothing wrong to you

Except give my love

Boundlessly

To a man

Who thinks he does not deserve me.

The Return

I waited.

I learned.

I did not leave, nor quit of my feelings.

Why would I, when love IS?

Why would I, when you ARE?

Why would I, when I AM?

I waited.

I learned.

I felt you so many times, and I still loved you;

I knew you always loved me, too.

Why wouldn’t you, when love IS?

Why wouldn’t you, when you ARE?

Why wouldn’t you, when I AM?

I waited.

I learned.

I did not give up hope – though almost…

And you returned.

I don’t know how long it will last – but I will still love you;

I don’t know how it will look – but I will still watch you;

I don’t know how you will be with me – but I will give to you…

Because love is,

Because you are,

Because I am

Always.