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Still Saturday

I don’t know why you had to leave

But you left.

I can’t believe the words you spoke,
Except as filtered flickers of the truth.

It’s ok.

The rain still falls and the leaves still wave on a Saturday.

The music we love still plays,
Still stirs my heart on a lazy day

Even if you are not here,

Even if you are somewhere miles away.

I will not follow anyone’s rules on love.
I will not follow anyone else’s heart.

I will lay here and heal

I will remember you, feel you here

I’ll let the stealthy rain cry my eyes’ tears
Imagine they kiss your lips, cheeks, hands, hair

As I still wish to do,

As I still love you.

A way

How many ways can I tell you
I’m missing you?

How many times must I say the words
To make them real for you,

Real enough to feel me
Real enough to see me
Real enough to hear me
Real enough to be with me?

How many days must I be alone
Before you come to take my hand

Not for forever,
Not for a day,
Not for a moment,
But for always?

How can I be away from you
When being with you feels like being with me…?

Secrets

We all have secrets we don’t tell each other:

Mine usually start with “I love you”
And spill like starlight from my eyes;

Yours usually start with “I want you”
And spill like the tides from your skin.

Maybe, One Day

I love you more than you think is proper.

I’ve been loved the same way,
By someone whom I did not find adequate,
Whom I did not think appropriate.

But I tried to love him.

You have not tried to love me.

At least I gain this insight into my friend
That I can relate with his disappointment
That I can be compassionate to his discomfort
That I can be compassionate to yours.

And, maybe, one day, you’ll love me;
Maybe, one day, you’ll embrace me
And I’ll be loved the way I love, by you,
With all the truth and dreaminess,
With all the hope and longing,
With all the romance and beauty
That I see in you…

That I live in me.

You and Me

I would live to delight you,
To turn your every day to magic
As mine are turned by you
As mine are turned by me.

I would live to entice you,
To turn your every sensation into bliss
As mine are turned by you
As mine are turned by me.

I would live to be your love,
To turn your heart to molten gold
As mine is turned by you
As mine is turned by me.

I would live to be your girl,
To adorn your very side with glory
As mine is adorned by you
As I am adorned by me.

I would live to be your peace
To be the respite you choose
As I choose you
As I choose me.

I would live for nothing but love
And you would be the love I live
As you are you
As I am me.

I would live to be forever yours
To be your eternal everything
As I, already, in my heart, belong with you
As you, already, in my heart, belong with me.

You Know, Don’t You…?

Don’t you know that my heart aches for you?
For the way you smile,
For the way you dress,
For the way you hold yourself in a chair,
So gallantly,
So arrogantly,
So nonchalantly?

Don’t you know that my eyes ache to see you?
To spy the drink you choose,
To watch you lift it to your lips,
To see you shift in your chair uncomfortably,
To watch you laugh mirthfully at yourself,
At me?

Don’t you know that my ears pine to hear you?
To find the timbre of your voice sink deep within my stomach,
To listen for all of the things you say that make no sense, and so much,
To hear your body speak so loudly in all of your small movements,
To wait for the silence of your breath as you hold me close to you?

Don’t you know how much I see in everything you do?

Don’t you know how very deeply I love everything in you?

I ache for your unkindness, even when it hurts.

I ache for your sweetness, spilling meaningless promises upon me.

I pine for your lips to come anywhere in my vicinity.

I ache for your breath, for your taste, for your fingers, for your skin…

I long for your responses, so immediate, so intense, so deep, to my every word and touch…

And yet, I would love nothing more than to watch you, forever, in your nativity…

To pine for you forever…

And find, one day, again, your thoughtful gaze upon me,

Knowing I was watching you.

When Connections Cease To Fade

Resist me, if you will:

Your fight reveals you,

Betrays your desire,

Demands my attention,

Commands my response.

Be silent, if you must:

Your vibration pulsates stronger,

Reaches farther,

Throbs within me,

Speaks more truth.

Remain away, while you can:

Your heart protects me,

Encourages all you love in me,

Strengthens what is weak in me,

Purifies what is best in me.

Release all of your negativity:

I will remain, in love, through time,

I will remain, in love, through peace,

I will remain, in love, through life,

I will remain, in love, with you.

And there is nothing anyone can do.

If I Cannot Love You

If I cannot love you
I will love the trees;
They do not judge my intensity.

If I cannot kiss you,
I will kiss the clouds;
They do not ask me to withhold my tears.

If I cannot touch you
I will touch the sky;
He does not fear the vibrations of my heart.

If I cannot lay with you
I will lay with the earth;
She does not restrain my release to her.

If I cannot scream with you
I will scream with the world;
My agony gets lost in the crowd.

If I cannot be with you
I will just be with me;
Silence asks nothing else of me.

But, if I cannot hold you
I do not know what else to do.

Unfamiliarity

Who are you
to walk into my life
to stare at me that way
with mesmerizing eyes
with an air of knowing
your body commanding me
your inaction owning me
then walk away from me?

Who are you
to walk back in my life
to stare at me that way
with mesmerizing eyes
with a smile of knowing
your body commanding me
your action owning me
then stroll away from me?

Who are you
to walk into my life
to smile at me that way
with knowing eyes
with embraces dear
your soul commanding me
your body owning me
then pull away from me?

Who are you
to walk into my life
to kiss me that way
with knowing lips
with such responsive skin
your heart commanding me
your hands owning me
then drive away from me?

Who are you
to walk with me in life
to talk to me that way
with knowing words
with embraces sweet
your music commanding me
your soul owning me
then slip away from me?

Who are you
to walk away from me
to then return to me
with my heart sore
with your mind worn
your words confusing me
your inaction demanding me
then ask all to be bound of me?

Who are you
to rule what no man rules
to own what no man owns
with casual intrigue
with remoteness invested
your heart calling to me
your will resisting me
then try to leave me be?

Shall I not cry?
Shall I not be?
Shall I erase all of me?
Shall I fall into misery?
Shall I deny this fate?
Shall I deny my heart?
Shall I become an empty shell
That you’ll not be alone,
Release the Phoenix within me
Release the One inside of you
Consumed by guilt
Consumed by pain
And find each other
In Eternity.

…Who are you…
…to me?