I am not for you.
You’ve said it:
You are not looking for beauty.
You regret asking me for my strength;
You regret asking me for all I am,
You said you didn’t know I would be
So ruthlessly myself.
Are you so weak;
Did I love you so much
As to be blind to your fragility,
To your hopeful heart
And fallible strength
As to miss the meaning
Of such
An unsustainable request?
Or did your fears catch up with you;
My words,
My heart pouring every day,
Every moment with unadulterated love,
Every breath of mine become for you;
Despite your mind’s monsters
Making a monster out of you?
I still love you as before.
No distance can quell this ocean.
No time can tarnish my heart’s shine.
No amount of verbal brandishing
Can make me believe your costuming,
Can disguise your heart or mine,
Can still the moments,
Still alive,
Of every moment
Your heart
Kisses,
Aches for,
Yearns for
Mine.
You are not for me
And I am not for you;
But we are
Bound
And this love
Rules
And I am for me
As you are for you.